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I'm still not dead yet :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 1 0 fffffFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 1 1 Lowick :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 3 1 so damn needy :c :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 2 8 The Dimension of Enjim :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 1 1 Gaaaaaayyyyy :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 2 1 Bandwagon time :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 1 7 Weekly Character comic 2 :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 4 6 Weekly Character comic 1 :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 2 2 whoo markers :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 4 4 So much for saving :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 1 4 ABOUT THE THING :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 3 6 BUCKLE YER SEATBELTS, PEEPS :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 5 4 finally getting the hang of digital kinda :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 2 3 Am Ded :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 1 3 venting :iconfire-mage-shinoharu:fire-mage-shinoharu 2 0

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I'm still not dead yet
i've uh... just been obsessed with Persona 5.... 

this game is just seriously perfect holy freaking hell

and the soundtrack... THE SOUNDTRACK :iconfinallyplz:
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So. Having depression and anxiety really sucks. Like, REALLY fucking sucks. Couldn't be just one or the other, my brain just had to be doubly fucked up and have both. Most of the time I'm fine, but on some random occasions (yes, completely random), my brain decides to go full depression mode. No energy, no appetite, no desire for human interaction. But the real problem with my brain is it decides to make me loathe myself more than anything. No reason for down day? Its my fault. Bing a lazy sack of shit? Its my fault. Wanting to vent? Better not, its gonna bug people. Not only that, but its probably gonna make them worry about you and thats gonna make them feel bad, nice going you piece of shit!

Everything i do or don't do makes me feel worse about myself. And no, i DON'T want attention, thats the last thing i want. However, I'm one of the most fortunate peole being surrounded by others that care about me.

And that just makes me feel worse.

I don't like not being happy around others because i don't want them to feel bad, so what my brain decides to do is BOTTLE THAT SHIT UP, because whats the worst that can happen? Not like its gonna make me hate myself even more, is it?

OH WAIT TOO LATE FOR THAT

And if my mind ever drifts to that darkest place, it just makes me feel even worse (if thats even possible at this point) because it will ultimately make more people sad than just me, so i decide to live with this bullshit.

Because i care about others more than my damn self.

So anything that i think will make people worry, i keep to myself, because I'd rather they be ignorant and happy than miserable like me.


On the internet, no one knows you're crying unless you tell them.
Lowick
brand new character, yaaaaaay

i need to redraw all of them though :iconlazycryplz:
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out of my mind
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So. Having depression and anxiety really sucks. Like, REALLY fucking sucks. Couldn't be just one or the other, my brain just had to be doubly fucked up and have both. Most of the time I'm fine, but on some random occasions (yes, completely random), my brain decides to go full depression mode. No energy, no appetite, no desire for human interaction. But the real problem with my brain is it decides to make me loathe myself more than anything. No reason for down day? Its my fault. Bing a lazy sack of shit? Its my fault. Wanting to vent? Better not, its gonna bug people. Not only that, but its probably gonna make them worry about you and thats gonna make them feel bad, nice going you piece of shit!

Everything i do or don't do makes me feel worse about myself. And no, i DON'T want attention, thats the last thing i want. However, I'm one of the most fortunate peole being surrounded by others that care about me.

And that just makes me feel worse.

I don't like not being happy around others because i don't want them to feel bad, so what my brain decides to do is BOTTLE THAT SHIT UP, because whats the worst that can happen? Not like its gonna make me hate myself even more, is it?

OH WAIT TOO LATE FOR THAT

And if my mind ever drifts to that darkest place, it just makes me feel even worse (if thats even possible at this point) because it will ultimately make more people sad than just me, so i decide to live with this bullshit.

Because i care about others more than my damn self.

So anything that i think will make people worry, i keep to myself, because I'd rather they be ignorant and happy than miserable like me.


On the internet, no one knows you're crying unless you tell them.

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greensam Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday!
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fire-mage-shinoharu Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks ^-^
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Sneaky-Ferret Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2017
Happy birthday!!! Assuming deviant art isnt lying about that. :3 any plans?
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fire-mage-shinoharu Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
once the bf gets off from work, gonna go get me a ps4 *u*

was really debating waiting for a switch because I NEED BREATH OF THE WILD IN MY LIFE

but since i wasn't able to preorder i'm better off waiting for it lol
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Sneaky-Ferret Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2017
It will just break your brain cas your not used to processing a zelda game that has voice acting in it beyond strange grunts. x3
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fire-mage-shinoharu Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
but it's so fucking pretty OnO
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Sneaky-Ferret Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2017
This isnt related to anything but I just spent 5 hours trying to solve a trigonometry problem and failing. 

...When I got to class the professor told us he mistyped a - sign instead of a + sign that made the entire problem impossible.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHGH

[SpongeBob Emote] SpongeKong 
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fire-mage-shinoharu Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
i would probably just lay down and cry if that'd happened to me lol

i am SO bad at math ;-;
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Sneaky-Ferret Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2017
I like math, I just DO NOT like math assignments. THEY DRIVE ME INSANE DX

I JUST WANNA USE MATH TO PROGRAM VIDEO GAMES! I DONT WANNA FACTOR TRIGONOMETRIC POLYNOMIALS Q~Q

*Dies*
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Sneaky-Ferret Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2017
*Flops on your art supplies.*
Whats up?
=w=
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